Time for a change

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I've been needing to make a change for awhile. Its crept on slowly, but I've been feeling the Lord nudging me for a long time.

I was anxious, excited, nervous and all other emotions running through me.

I have never done something so "out of the box". But, I took a leap of faith. I will always put my marriage and family above everything else this world has to offer.

With that, I quit my job and I don't have another full time job lined up. Am I nuts?! Should I really do this?

 My husband and I sat down numerous times and talked about it. We live solely on his salary and are comfortable with it and even save.

My salary wasn't huge, but it was nice to have that extra cushion for trips, furniture, a dress I just wanted, and the like.

I most definitely wanted to be a stay at home Mom, I just never thought about being a stay at home wife. Both Stephen's and my mom were stay at home mothers and I can't begin to tell you how much that had an impact on us. My Mom and dad made it to every voice recital, baseball game, dance recital, and piano lesson. I loved that my mom was the classroom mother and my girl scout leader. I am so thankful that in every childhood memory, was parents were present.

I know I'm childless right now, but the same concept is there. I want to be there emotionally for my husband. I want to be physically home when he is home. I want time to enjoy cooking dinner and lunches. I want to spend more time helping him in his job rather than feeling drained from spending 2 hours total commuting in and out for work and being exhausted and irritated when I get home.

I am ready for the next stage of this journey. I'm crazy nervous and anxious, but eager about the possibilities.

 I can't wait to see what the Lord does with us, future jobs and our marriage! I am giving Him my everything.